those damn euphoric seconds

Everyday you’re in my thoughts. We’ve said few words to each other in the span of these 20 years, and yet everyday I dream of the things I might say to you.

I know I’m supposed to love you, but yet I hate you so badly. And then I hate myself, I hate what you’ve made me. I thought being away from you would help me overcome this constant agonizing struggle.

Sometimes I wish you were a shittier person, so that you would be easier to hate. But as it is you’re just a bitter old man now, obsessed with making me and my brother follow your discarded dreams.

Just once I wish you’d actually give me guidance and not bullshit me. Just once.

I’m so filled with this pain and struggle, with accusing you of things that you have both nothing to do with and yet everything to do with.

I don’t think this will be for forever, I know one day you’ll be gone, and so I started a long time ago to try to bear with you, to understand that you’re from a different time a different place. I do my best to show you that as fucked up and wretched as you are, I still love you. Loving you I think has shown me that I’m really capable of loving anyone.

But at the end of the day even though I love you, I always wish that I had had a real man to be a father to me, to be my personal hero, instead I had you, and maybe it’ll turn out that that was enough, but most of the time I don’t think it is.

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"It happens when a father realizes he doesn’t just love his daughter, but also her wife. It happens when a soldier tells his unit that he’s gay, and they tell him they knew it all along and they didn’t care, because he was the toughest guy in the unit. It happens when a video sparks a movement to let every single young person know they’re not alone, and things will get better. It happens when people look past their ultimately minor differences to see themselves in the hopes and struggles of their fellow human beings. That’s where change is happening."

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It seems O’Rourke has some asshole on his face.

Get the man a what?

A bongo drum. “Take your shoes off, get a bongo drum, forget where to go to the bathroom, and it’s yours.” What the fuck is that supposed to mean Senor Cunt Face? White people with sense, come get your nimrod. Tell him to sit his ass down.

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This is a little bit of magic right here.

-Joe