those damn euphoric seconds

Everyday you’re in my thoughts. We’ve said few words to each other in the span of these...

Mon, 03 Dec 2012 11:34:43 -0800

Everyday you’re in my thoughts. We’ve said few words to each other in the span of these 20 years, and yet everyday I dream of the things I might say to you.

I know I’m supposed to love you, but yet I hate you so badly. And then I hate myself, I hate what you’ve made me. I thought being away from you would help me overcome this constant agonizing struggle.

Sometimes I wish you were a shittier person, so that you would be easier to hate. But as it is you’re just a bitter old man now, obsessed with making me and my brother follow your discarded dreams.

Just once I wish you’d actually give me guidance and not bullshit me. Just once.

I’m so filled with this pain and struggle, with accusing you of things that you have both nothing to do with and yet everything to do with.

I don’t think this will be for forever, I know one day you’ll be gone, and so I started a long time ago to try to bear with you, to understand that you’re from a different time a different place. I do my best to show you that as fucked up and wretched as you are, I still love you. Loving you I think has shown me that I’m really capable of loving anyone.

But at the end of the day even though I love you, I always wish that I had had a real man to be a father to me, to be my personal hero, instead I had you, and maybe it’ll turn out that that was enough, but most of the time I don’t think it is.

"It happens when a father realizes he doesn’t just love his daughter, but also her wife. It happens..."

Sun, 09 Oct 2011 09:35:02 -0700

“It happens when a father realizes he doesn’t just love his daughter, but also her wife. It happens when a soldier tells his unit that he’s gay, and they tell him they knew it all along and they didn’t care, because he was the toughest guy in the unit. It happens when a video sparks a movement to let every single young person know they’re not alone, and things will get better. It happens when people look past their ultimately minor differences to see themselves in the hopes and struggles of their fellow human beings. That’s where change is happening.”

- President Barack Obama (via cloudsofecstasy)

stfuconservatives: the-madame-hatter: nom-chompsky: thesmoking...

Sun, 09 Oct 2011 09:33:14 -0700

stfuconservatives:

the-madame-hatter:

nom-chompsky:

thesmokingsun:

sapphrikah:

fearandwar:

See full: http://www.twitpic.com/6xai3z/full

It seems O’Rourke has some asshole on his face.

Get the man a what?

A bongo drum. “Take your shoes off, get a bongo drum, forget where to go to the bathroom, and it’s yours.” What the fuck is that supposed to mean Senor Cunt Face? White people with sense, come get your nimrod. Tell him to sit his ass down.

alan told em

This is a little bit of magic right here.

-Joe

the universe is a lonely fucking place

Sat, 17 Sep 2011 21:46:02 -0700

the universe is a lonely fucking place

Audio

Wed, 14 Sep 2011 17:44:53 -0700

ill sit here head in handsbecause no one understands no one fucking gets it! and i curl up in a...

Mon, 12 Sep 2011 20:20:00 -0700

ill sit here head in hands
because no one understands

no one fucking gets it!

and i curl up in a ball
because you all make me feel so goddamn small

and no one fucking gets it

and even when you asks hey whats got you down
you fail to see its this whole fucking town

none of you fucking get it

no wonder i feel so fucking alone
have fun living your shallow fucking lives
while i get the fuck away from all your lies

all the world is at peaceand yet i lie awake each waking moment an untold agonyeach living second...

Mon, 12 Sep 2011 01:25:00 -0700

all the world is at peace
and yet i lie awake

each waking moment an untold agony
each living second with an unseen distress

i hope i may still be relieved
i hope that my trust in you was not deceived

for now i can only hope and wait, hope and wait

Everybody deserves someone who makes them look forward to tomorrow.

Sun, 11 Sep 2011 01:46:45 -0700

derrickmartellrose:

Fri, 09 Sep 2011 01:29:18 -0700

derrickmartellrose:

"We were meant to lose people we love. How else would we know how important they are?"

Fri, 09 Sep 2011 01:21:30 -0700

“We were meant to lose people we love. How else would we know how important they are?”

- The Curious Case of Benjamin Button (via kari-shma)

kari-shma: (by sandy☮)

Fri, 09 Sep 2011 01:19:55 -0700

kari-shma:

(by sandy☮)

motherjones: What do you think? Would full disclosure make us a...

Mon, 15 Aug 2011 10:27:44 -0700

motherjones:

What do you think? Would full disclosure make us a better-informed society, or would it just end up indulging an unshakeable violence fetish in our culture? Reblog your thoughts.

icanread: (by conilab)

Thu, 11 Aug 2011 15:12:41 -0700

icanread:

(by conilab)

thank god for late night cigarettes

Tue, 09 Aug 2011 13:37:27 -0700

America, The Country That I Love

Tue, 02 Aug 2011 23:11:00 -0700

Recently I have been challenged with controversies and contentions about my country. Because we call this place, the United States of America, the greatest country in the world. Yet this phrase wrenches my heart and creates discord and strife in my soul of the highest order; left and right I see a dangerous dissension, a catastrophic clash between left and right, and different races and the interests of the fabulously wealthy and the big money of multinational corporations and everyone else. Where we have become disinterested in holding the men who answer to we, the people, accountable and disillusioned with the process by which we stand here today. Where those at the very top have more than any one man or even any more than any hundred men or any thousand or thousands of men could ever need and yet they ask for more. And where we sweep this nation’s ugly past, a past that includes violation of human rights, of genocide and of slavery, of de facto and de jure segregation under the rug. And worse yet that while it persists we have instituted a gag rule that we must not talk about “solved” issues of race in modern America.

But while all this persists I persist as well, I persist that despite our woes this is indeed the greatest nation on Earth. Sadly this is not just a matter of how much I love these United States. I cannot simply affirm my affection and then walk away, it is because of my devotion, my zeal, my passion for these great states that I relish the task of pointing out its imperfections. This nation was not built on idiotic ignorance, nor did it ever encourage entitlement and never was it satisfied with the status quo.

This nation was founded on a challenge, the challenge to create a nation where all men could live free and equal. A land that people sought as refuge from religious persecution. And from the very beginning we encountered an embittered conflict, whether or not black men would be free. As if they were not already born free! Whether or not we would accept the native tribes of the land as our own. As if they were not already bound to this land as we have become! And when black men were freed whether or not they should be allowed to vote. As if they had not already proved that they were more worthy of these freedoms than we were! Whether or not women were equal to men. As if they had not been here along with every man proving their worth! Whether or not Latino immigrants had our same rights as men freely born here to live, provide for their families and hope for a better future for their children as we always have. As if they did not share our same dreams! Whether or not the Asian immigrants who came here were to be treated as our peers and equals or as suspicious strangers, and if we would call them Americans or Orientals. As if they were below us! Whether or not those of middle eastern and Arabic heritage could be trusted as true red white and blue Americans. As if they did not mourn when we mourned and celebrated when we celebrated! We’ve always faced these challenges and it’s likely that we will forevermore. What we must ask ourselves is if we are up to a 200 year old challenge. The challenge that is in itself our very roots, and defines who we are as a people.

The challenge to create a nation, a community, a fellowship of humanity, free and equal.

We can turn away from our ignorance, our laziness, our prejudices and remold the mettle of America with the values that our fathers loved. We can find a common ground, a meeting point on the values that my immigrant parents instilled in me as American values; the values of dedication, passion, truth, freedom, justice and equality. These are the values of the Song family, of your family, of your father’s family and his father’s family, of the family of every American. We can look beyond how we look, how we talk, how we think and find what makes us more than a bunch of separate peoples, into one people, into the American people. And the endless potential for this is what makes this the greatest nation on Earth. That we are still here facing this fight, the world over said that it could not be done and we are still here as the true testament that it can be done, it is being done.

What new frontiers will our time hold for us? A cure for cancer? The end of poverty, homelessness and starvation? The end of prejudice and by extension wars? To go boldly go beyond the moon, beyond our solar system, beyond the known reaches of the universe? What will we do in our time and how will we leave this earth for, as the founders called them, our posterity. We can do it in our time and brick by brick restore the grand old house that we call our United States, when we are united as one nation, one people, the people of the United States of America, that we can do it all for this nation that we love.

being in love is like

Fri, 15 Jul 2011 17:45:39 -0700

at any given time i just want to yell out FUCK YEAH IM IN LOVE

even though i know no one cares but damn do i want to celebrate

i hate when people post i hate my insecurities and simply leave it at that. we’re supposed to...

Wed, 13 Jul 2011 14:16:17 -0700

i hate when people post i hate my insecurities and simply leave it at that.

we’re supposed to be adaptive to change we’re supposed to do things differently when we hit a wall. stop just hating makes you insecure, embrace it! know your weaknesses and know why you’re stronger than them!

i hate how scared i am of being alone, of how weak i feel both literally and figuratively. i hate when i feel like i don’t have the power to fulfill my dreams to live the life i want to live, when i feel physically small. but life is a process of learning and improvement and when you encounter a problem you don’t keep trying to run down the wall you make changes and some might lead you somewhere good and others somewhere bad but the important thing is that you keep trying.

i’m never going to give up on myself, i can make this lanky skinny body of mine work and do great things! amazing things!

hell i saw a picture that was taken of me just about a month ago and ive been working out for most of that month and looking at me now i see the changes.

the best way to survive is to adapt and to persevere and i tell you the one reason why i can consider myself a success, a winner, a champion, it is because when i get knocked down i get back up

Everyone has a shtick that they talk endlessly about. I have several but above all mine is racism....

Thu, 07 Jul 2011 06:39:49 -0700

Everyone has a shtick that they talk endlessly about. I have several but above all mine is racism. Everything always turns into race with me, how people just hate each other because they are different, because they ignore hundreds of years of scholarship and thinking and reasoning maybe even thousands of years just to hate the hell out of each other for no apparent reason besides differing skin. I hate all forms of racism, none of it is ever justified, especially today because at least back then none of those idiots realized it was wrong to be prejudiced for absolutely no goddamn reason. When I meet racists in this day and age I honestly just have to think that they are the biggest wastes of space and energy that the universe could have used for something more productive, actually just about anything would be more productive than these people.

There used to be a precedent for racism, it was called stupidity. I wish that by today we would have learned to be above our basic instincts and use only the skill that has kept the human race alive from its inception, adaptability. What I mean to say is, everyone’s forefathers, everywhere, were dumber than rocks and when they saw different colored people they usually felt hostile towards the unknown thing and it took time for them to learn that they were actually the same creature. Today you have absolutely no excuse to think like that, I don’t even know how many years were used to come to this point where we can finally understand each other, our cultures and traditions and instead of sharing our strengths and helping each other through our weaknesses, we continue to war against each other because we have different skin. Tell you what next time I see a guy who wears a different colored shirt than that I am wearing I will go beat the living hell out of him.

Traditionally everyone just killed everyone else nearby them, and as the world became globalized we felt it pertinent to unite on the basis of skin color. The saddest part about this is that instead of uniting to help the poor and feed the hungry and all the other tragedies that we hear about and promptly ignore, we decide that time is best spent devoting all our energy to hate. Let me tell you that hate takes energy and persistence, you use so much of yourself hating. Hating is a chore, its work you have to continue searching for a reason to hate, so you make things up, and pretty soon you go into things arbitrary and false. “I hate asians because they have slanty eyes! I hate white people because all of them are out to get me! I hate mexicans because they take jobs I could have!”

There is no hopeful end note to this like there usually is, like I said hate takes energy, and all this energy I’ve spent hating racism, outlining its pitfalls and stupidities especially in what is supposed to a brilliant new era, its tired me out. Maybe one day we will learn to accept the differences between ourselves and anyone else regardless of race or beliefs. Maybe we will stop fighting fire with fire, maybe we will stop responding to racism with indignation and further hatred, maybe hopefully we will not let the pettiness invade our spirits and we can respond with dignity. But until then if you aren’t wearing the same colors as I am watch out because I’m pissed.

"We are all a little weird and life’s a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness..."

Wed, 29 Jun 2011 12:40:17 -0700

“We are all a little weird and life’s a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.”

- Dr. Seuss

sappy simple lines for the same type of love

Mon, 27 Jun 2011 12:56:57 -0700

i love you more each day
even when you’re far away

i love you more than words can express
i love the way you look in that dress

i love your smile; it lights up the room
and you shine more brilliantly than the moon

you know all there is to know about me
more than i know about myself

you listen to my thoughts
you take care of me when i’m ailing

you reassure me when i’m failing
and you do it because you love me and that is the greatest part of all

i love you unabashedly and unequivocally because i know you love me back